If you keep telling yourself no ,you can't do that you aren't worth of that then how do you expect others to believe in you and your passion.
Try and visualize the you that you want to be,be honest with yourself and those around you get up early get dressed ,make your bed ,eat breakfast ,get the kids off to school and call your bestie and ask them for the reality check that your seeking no one knows you like your bestie you've been through the thick and thin together make sure you make notes for later.
Now that you've had this meeting you need to get over the feeling of hurt that's just your ego trying to hold you back, take a few minutes to be honest with yourself and write down how your feeling what are your thoughts about what they said.
Process those thoughts and feeling correct the ones you can apolze if that's what needs to be done make steps to correct the behaviour or feelings before you make a how to step by step for your future and that for your family.