It is my birthday today and I don't know if I would be happy or I would be sad because I am 17 years on dialysis and more than half of my lifetime I spent being sick like I am now. Forty-one years of age is a big number for me because I could not believe that I have achieve this milestone of an age considering my current health issues that is ridiculously off the charts in its situation already.
If this would be a punishment against me then I am gladly accepting it since I am fully paid because of this. But there is a passage in the Bible that says if you fear the Lord and if you respect/love your parents you will live long and get fruitful here on earth.
Ephesians 6:1-3 New International Version (NIV)
6 Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. 2 “Honor your father and mother”—which is the first commandment with a promise— 3 “so that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth.
I can accept that I am living long in this world but truly obviously I am not really enjoying it. But nonetheless I am counting my blessings and steem community is one of those blessings in my life that I am truly thankful and grateful for. I am just fortunate to have this community helping me because without this platform I am long dead already because not even in my family and church helps me substantially about my expenses.
It would have been better for me right after birth because of what happened to me and it would be fair enough not to witness the beauty of this world then to live like this with an unimaginable illness that I am constantly fighting with to manage with finance, mental strength, and physical endurance. It is a hard life but again I have to face the reality and keep on doing what is right for me.