There's A Bubblegum In My Throat Because I'm Clumsy | Oil Painting

This was started last year as a portrait study. I donno. There's just this photo of me and I just want to study the colors and stuff so I painted it. This was meant to be a study but I decided to experiment along the way. Unlike my other major works, I wasn't thinking of any ideas on this one. I just let my subconscious mind flow and do its job. The title is just there to be random and funny.

Or is it really random?

Nah, I bet not. Since I let my subconscious take over, I do think this painting says a lot about me. About who I am. About how I act.

You see, it looks playful. Childish. Careless. Just like me!

I don't usually talk. I just observe and listen. I usually just shut up even when things are not good. Well, I'm bad at explaining things when speaking. I can't express myself with words that well, that's why I became a visual artist.

...And that is why it has a thick paint over the mouth.

There's A Bubblegum In My Throat Because I'm Clumsy

or

I can't speak my thoughts well because I'm dumb and I might make things worse with my words.

and those harsh brush strokes are my frustrations.

The process was a bit crazy lol. And I would say, classic me.
Most of my works are unfinished or abandoned. This is one of them.

This was created in February 2018 and I even posted about it here

My art process always revolve around my emotions. I always follow my heart. If I feel like doing it, then I'm going to do it. If I don't, then I don't. If I don't feel like finishing my painting, I just leave it. In fact, most of my artworks are unfinished. Because I'm a work in progress; and I don't know when am I going to be finished. Or probably just leave it that way; that makes me unique, anyway.

And I left it alone for a year. In February 2019 I started painting it again. It was kinda fun. Until I got frustrated because it wasn't the way I expected it to be. So I abandoned it again. :P

It looked like this for months. I looked bald at the top lol but who cares.

Until some weird shit got to me and yesterday, I decided to work on it again. So here's the progress.

That's it. I don't usually film my painting but I did a kinda-timelapse of it and will post it next time. :>

It's not well-thought. Didn't even have a visual study before that. But I enjoyed doing it and that's the most important part.