Do people really care about me? I have asked this question to myself about long ago. I did not know the correct answer to that because you can never find out people's true intentions until we need something from them. I have not changed my perspective after only one experience. There were many incidents which gave me lessons and I'm going to share one of them today which is during my school exams.
So, in march we had first monthly exams at school. It was on a short syllabus and the problem was I do not attend school most of the time. I study better at home and another problem is that I am not good at grammars even in my own language. So, Bangla 2nd paper is something I am always scared of. It was the first day of exam and the subject was Social Work and I was really good at it. In the exam hall, the moment I saw the questions, I realized I knew all of the answers.
So, a girl was sitting beside me we knew each other as we were classmates and I considered her as a friend. Anyway, during the exam she kept asking me to show her my paper and she offered to help me with some questions as well. I told her, that I will show her but I don't need any help now because I knew all of the answers. As she did not know some of the answers, I moved my paper a little so she could see my answers. Even when my paper was done, I still stayed on my bench for her. To be honest, I was not expecting anything in return.
I thought we were friends, so I should be helping her. After that exam ended, she was very friendly towards me, she held my hand and thanked me. We had a good chat which was pretty normal. So, I thought both us were on good terms with each other. The next day, it was Bangla 2nd paper exam and I was nervous. But when I saw that friend of mine, I was feeling a bit relaxed.
I was looking at her, but it felt like she was avoiding me on purpose. I was thinking that she would help me with 2-3 questions at least. Also, I did not even ask her to show me her whole paper. But whenever I asked she replied, "I will help you after I finish my paper," But when she finished her paper, she stood up and submitted it to the teacher.
That day I was emotionally hurt, I kept thinking about how she had asked for my paper when she needed but when I needed help, she acted as if I was invisible or a stranger. So, after facing many other incidents, I got enlightenment. Most of the people they only care about themselves and what they gain from you.
But this did not stop me from helping people. I know some of these people are still in my life who only texts me when they need something from me. But when I help them I don't expect anymore. I have stopped my expectations. I really don't care if they are not genuine, because I can't force them to care for me. Also, I do not judge every friendship from one incident either. But I am definitely aware about people's actions. In a way, I will know which people are my genuine friends and which are fake.
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