I really feel you @txmek. I used to feel the same way about myself. Whenever something went wrong, I felt like I was good for nothing and there were times when I would tell myself, "Maybe I should d*e. I hate myself." It was a really dark place to be.

But honestly things started changing when I slowly learned to love myself more and stopped putting everyone else before me. It didn't happen overnight but little by little my life changed. Today I'm in a much better place mentally. I don't feel like dy*ng anymore I actually want to live and enjoy my life.

So please be gentle with yourself. Taking care of yourself, even in small ways, really does matter. You deserve the same love and kindness that you give to other people. I hope one day you can look at yourself with the same compassion too. ❤️