I only come here when I miss it. Not regularly. Not often. But when I do, this is where I come.
How ironic that a creature of the night, should come to a place of darkness so she can see the light.
I stood out side the priest’s window tonight. Watching him sleep the sleep of the innocent.... waiting for the thirst to take me over. I thought that would be enough. It wasn’t. So here I am again.
In the dark. Shoulder to shoulder with mortals that rarely add up to anything more than my food supply. If they truly knew the nature of the beast that rubs shoulder with them tonight…
Even as the lights grow dim and I know what’s coming next.... its brilliance shocks my senses and for a moment I forget. I forget the thousands I have slaughtered. The blood on my hands. The look of recognition on their faces as the moment is upon them. The shrill sounds of their screams, the breathless quality of their futile begging and pleading, my surprise just how many said not a word but simply raised their fists and made sure I would never forget their faces.
It is not the days I miss. And surely not proximity to the human soul and the intimate social exchange it engenders. It’s the sun. I miss the sun. Its warmth. Its brilliance. The way my clothes moved on my flesh as the sun dried it after a rainstorm. The smell of it on newly dried clothing. Its soft, sweet loving caress on my brown skin. It was in those moments I knew I belonged to it and it alone. But that was so long ago. All these things and more I miss about light I can see once and once only. So I cheat. I’ve cheated death(or is that life) for thousands of years so no problem there. I come here when I miss being alive. And if I am patient, somewhere and at sometime, I will catch a glimpse of it one more time. Such irony. The one thing I miss is the one thing that can destroy me. The only thing that can. The naked light..... of the naked sun. The woman next to me passes me popcorn I pretend to eat and for the next couple of hours, I leave the past behind....
all images courtesy of pixabay and shutterstock as usual...
