I was excited! I just couldn't believe I would be seeing Joe after some years. I only knew what he looked like virtually and so you could imagine the level of excitement when I got the news that he was in town.
I returned from school one hectic evening and got the message from two different media stating;
^{Fine girl, where in this Uyo do you actually live?
Another read; How are you? How is the exam going?
This one you’re choked up this week.
I know it's not the best time this period but 🤭
Do you have a few minutes to meet on Tuesday, or Wednesday?}

I initially saw the second message and my excitement was up to the brim. I couldn't contain the joy and shock so I asked, wait are you in Uyo? I was surprised for a moment, I didn't believe my ears. I know the last time my friend told me some time like that, that he was already in Lagos, I got so upset without thinking about the circumstances that surrounded that action of him not informing me before his flight.
So I guess he didn't want to repeat the same mistake, he couldn't risk it even when he knew it might not be the best time for a meet up because he knows how choked up I am with my examination, he made an effort still to reach out and let me know he was around and wouldn't stay for long so if it would be possible to see quickly even if for a moment.

In my excitement of course I responded with a yes! I mean I wanted to meet him as well. After talking over the phone for the last few years and months, I wanted to see him as well, I wanted to get to meet him physically too. I picked a day between the two mentioned days, and that was Wednesday.
In my mind, okay I am free on Wednesday or I could free up my schedule then and try to meet him. You know the eagerness and all? It was all there, I didn't care about anything I was just glad I would finally get to meet my friend.

But guess what? Now drawing towards the Dday, I am freaking out and wanting to back out. It's not because I am afraid or uncertain of anything. I am just worried that I might stand him up and I don't like that and wouldn't want that to happen too, as much as I would love to meet him, I also have really pressing needs and things on my table that I doubt I might have the time for that meet up. I feel sad about it and I don't know how to reach out to let him know. I have before midnight to reach out and let him know how I feel and the sudden or seeming change in plan but I am still contemplating about it.
Should I just go for it? Can I make it right on time? Would I be able to manage my time well to do that? Or do I just go ahead and reach out to him so that I don't end up disappointing him at the very di-minute? What do I do? My mind is having an unsettled argument and I do not seem to know what decision to make.
I just hope that whatever happens, I would be able to communicate earlier and act fast too.
For now, I'll just let the uncertainty be and see how everything unfolds.

^{PS: Photos are mine except stated otherwise}

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   28 January ~ Tuesday