I was having a struggle these past few days because I saw my cousin's post about my grandma who was admitted to a hospital. she was 90+ years old. I never really know muc about her because as much as possible, I wanted to avoid her, she gets mad easily, even at her younger years. No one was excused by her tyranny , even her husband.
My mother told me to visit her lad on December 7, I forgot what exact day was it, mother said she was looking for me and for everyone else like she wants to bid goodbye.
I was able to visit her last December 8 but went to a motocross competition first to kill time, as much as possible, I wanted to spend little time with her, I'm afraid of being scolded by her without a reason.
I was wrong. When I got to her room, she was too weak already to scold anyone but guess what, she still does! My cousins were singing her favorite song and she told the, "kayabag ba ninyo!" ( your voice is monotonous).
Looking at the photo, she is in lot of pain, and maybe in heavy conscience with what she did to many of the people she met in her younger years that she did bad especially her daughter in-laws and granddaughters.
But even with the pain and hardness that she brought in our life, I'm still thankful to her because I knew God, the living and true God who is merciful and just.
Im so happy that she is in no pain anymore. and that my mother and sisters forgave her. I didn't really feel so much about her because I was stll so young when all those tyranny happened .
this was the very first time taht i held her hand and do her hair and hug her. if only she was a bit nicer to us when she was still young, I could have felt a grand mothers love which i have been longing for.
Early this December 11, she passed away, I still don't know the whole story how but my sister has got to visit her before her last breath.
I'll get back to you all soon,I just have to arrange few things.
