Okey, to clear one thing. Im not depressed nor sad. Its more like anger that i have no place to let it out while looking for 3rd party opinion.
In my life i had 2 nice relationships, the first one went out of hand cuz i got a bit jelly and her parents pushed her to break up with me cuz i was "poor" based on their standards and i had no school. At that point i was earning more than she was which was kinda funny lol. Yeah my first hearth break guess thats LIFE? We were about to get engaged... Would you do this to your own child? even tho you are aware she/he is set for life on your side like, financially stable, gave her/him car, place to live and everything?
2 Years later i end up with a girl which is poor (like for real), and that last for 1 year till this december.
I was taking care of her more than her parents (a bit dysfunctional family), buying clothes, school supplys litteraly everything for her to have a normal life, somethig that she was missing since forever. She was also toxic and alot manipulative. At some point in the relationship her period was late for 5 days she was threatening me that she will kill her self if she is pregnant (and i was more than sure she is not), she was getting mad at for not buying her specific chocolate while picking up 3 different types of chocolate and cookies from the shelf.. Mad like breaking up, psycho attacks and again kinda threatening me that she will end her life. She was thinking that im controling her if i call to ask if she is fine hows the night going or where she is. In a fucking one year she never offered to pay a food or something and the first time i told her that im spending waaaaay to much money on her and we need to cut some of the things we are spending she got mad at me, she didnt talk to me for 1 week.
1 week ago, we catch up cuz she called apparently she was missing me, we had a nice night, she said sorry for a lot of things she did and what not. God, it was maybe the best night of us, it was kinda special. We were screwing for a full week. Today, she went out with on of her friends.. "friends"? She knows him for like 3 weeks, from the club she ended up in his place. She has to come over my place but heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey.. He is nice, he is funny, he is paying everything when they go out. WOW? I played it nice, act chill. But i guess imma go out with her today and tell her what type of whore she is, and how sad and pitty her life and persona is, how toxic she is and what not.
Im not still sure, am i too good and nice? am i too am i too forgiving? Or its just my first time getting out of a toxic relationship the toxic way? Should i just ignor her and never let it out? Did i do anything wrong besides being too nice?