Here at the bustling city of the Philippines, Manila. It has been a month that me and my colleagues are waiting for the call of Marriott for our On Job Training .

It has been already a week we stayed here in the city where still, no call from the Hotel, slow process from the school department and unsure updates from the hotel.

We somehow lose hope from the coordinators since we felt like they do not have the urge to help us. Every update where unsure and this lead our hearts to break.

Nights are always uneasy because every time I wake up, I pray to God for my interview or somehow I will be shortlisted. I wish the long agony should somehow be solved in the future where all sacrifices would worth the wait.

The time is running and I should finish everything by the month of May yet I am still here, having anxiety. Yes, the hotel may call us but there is a possibility I would not be deployed from the interview. I am prepared but will my preparation fit their standards? I do not know if my hurting is still not enough because my teardrops are still not falling from my eyes.

I always think to retreat back home and play to the comfort zone but I am a fighter, I do challenges outside my comfort zone to grow. I miss my home, my daily routine in life but how may I grow if I go home. Yes, I will also take risks and sacrifices to unlock better future.

Sometimes there will be a point that negativity will always fill all my emotions but I am grateful my friends would somehow help and give me strength and courage from time to time. I know God would always find a way to comfort me.

The week where we have to strive for happiness and hide our sadness. I know that me and my colleagues are diverting the hurting by roaming around the city. The week may be filled with depression but there are plenty of blessings in disguise. I am grateful that God is always good because He knows our prayers and one of it is struggling financially.

We were always thinking to save money first and that made us decide to eat once a day but luckily in evening, relatives and friends would treat us. We were apparently happy since the week was full of grace and blessings.

There was one time we we're not only treated with food but also we were treated with pool service by my friend's relative. We are so thankful that we managed to be happy once in a while and forget the misery in our minds.

We strive to be happy in our darkest moments. We should never let the negativity take over because they said "There is a rainbow after the storm" and I hope soon enough that we will be getting what we desired in life. The desire in the moment that we want to be deployed in Marriott Hotel.