I just need to bite myself through this insanity and try to become independent.
Step by step.

My problem is that I'm kinda bureaucratically "besieged"
cuz my permanent pain (school accident), broken medical system, broken system in general, my family..

now I'm homeless and broke and my mom took my money from the state for over a year; never in my life got a single cent from the state (germany is a socialistic "Welfare state")

but I'm still here, still going

Communists to the Left. Fascists to the Right. Military-Corporate-Prison-Industrial-Complex at the Center. But I'm still here!