I've put some money to the side for Hive to power them up today. :)
My situation is still bad.
But I've manage to survive. Without being homeless (most of the time).
And my Hive account is slowly growing again! great success. :>
in the worst case: I'd have to use my savings and power down again.
which also gives me some kind of security, cuz it could certainly sustain me for a while.
I already had to do this.
That is why I'm no dolphin anymore.. :/
(Yes, I already was dolphin - for a short time at least)
My very little sister is spending a lot of time with me lately.
She says to me that she just can't stand most people any longer.
I want to come together with my little sister and my dad and just live together.
Is it just asked too much: to live together with father and sister?
No survival.
But living, relaxing, coming down, healing.
Allowing the living potential to unfold.
Enjoying time and being.
?
My sister and me just want some fun time with our dad, as long as we still have him.
Sadly we never really had the chance.
We have many years of pain behind us. Cuz of my psychopathic, narcisstic mother.
We couldnt defend. My dad has just withdrawn himself more and more.
But didnt even have an own room.
Still had to earn money. And do a lot of stuff in the house, so it doesnt break down.
(And all the insane wishes of our mother so she doesnt go full mad.)
We have nearly no memories of fun time with our dad.
Lately it got so bad, our mom chased us away and we had to flee.
My dad and me were the first. At the beginning of corona.
Then my bigger little sister.
Now my very litte little sister..
So the last two years havent been easy. Trying to survive with nothing.
But have also been a big relief.
We are still realizing how hard our mother/ my dad's wife traumatized us all.
It is like a fog, slowly disappearing.
Corona hasnt made it easier.
But I have a deep good feeling. Which is actually quite weird and surprising, therefore magical. :)
I also want to use the chance to thank you all for your support and attention! :)
Auch möchte ich der deutschen Community danken.
Vor allem denen, welche mir durch Spenden vor nicht langer Zeit sehr geholfen haben. (Sie wissen wer gemeint ist :)) Es waren zusammen um die 200-300€, die mich ernährten.
Natürlich hätte ich einen noch größeren Nutzen, hätte ich sie in Hive gehalten. Ging nur leider nicht.
Natürlich auch ein großes Danke an allgemein jeden Voter, all die super Kommentare und vor allem einfach jeden aufmerksamen Leser!
Frohes neues Jahr! :)
Wasser-Tiger