In a nutshell I need help to compose starting with a midi keyboard here remotely on zero budget and or IRL at home here in the UK beyond this stage i am unable to let out my full creativity far far far from it in fact barely at all, it's all bouncing around in there but there's no way to release it without now composing it all my self basically i am all bunged up and totally throttled by an inability to play keyboard/or any instrument with the added possibility of autism preventing it ever happening it may also provide a superantural ability to excel at some stage of repeating what i am taught and that would lead to something very special for sure but i am stuck in limbo now i will continue to produce but the rate of creation has hit substantially reduced times to release maybe days to weeks instead of my prior averages of from 30mins to 2.hrs average up to a prior max on average of up to 4.5hrs it's just put me in a situation I want to make my own sounds hand played remake eg. jaws properly re-invisioned darker and elemental, some kind of star wars duel of the fates rendition of my own composing and many more as well as obviously just entire sample packs with full melody in strings and ensembles etc that are totally new and unique and synths just open my mind and let it all pour out from song creations to sound packs to the masses with a uniquely different stand out style Hybrid Style Music sample packs entire archives of packs in time with consistant creation.

To a studio i'd be a gamble but if that gamble paid off i'd not disappoint i'd aim to make every song something special I mean an experience unforgotten ever.

The only way i could for-see that being a reality is if a movie sound studio of high standing would take me on by contract, and pay me a wage to move to there country for some time duration of training or better if they being close to my home enough so that i could learn under them, and once I get good I'd produce for them at home send the works to them for finalisation, the only thing between that being possible is anything like that i would take considerably more time to teach it, far surpassing anyone neuro-typical time to learn would be not definitive but almost certain there, it maybe might literally take me years apposed to months to understand a single part of tuition that takes a average person a few months could take say 3-5yrs at worst or i never fully adopt it but anything i gleen of it will 100% be special and an amazing piece comparitive to it's uniform norm, but man if i did click i got it and could then just make it I would give it everything I have sleep in that sound studio if i had to regularly to then go home when they woke me up but i would aim to impress you my self them everyone for the quality and creativity yeah a regular living nothing special is fine but just to truly make what i have always dreamed of making would be payment enough for me and to have every person amazed by every sound in everything built would be the biggest reward of all.

If you think this current Hybrid Style Music production I make sometimes seems WOW! at times then get me to a level of composing and I'll make every sound in every track make my self included go WOW!!

I'm commited to learning this way and being hands on baby shown slap my hands for getting it wrong and manually posisiton my hand and fingers on the keys of a keyboard if you have to, but the point is I can give and want to give so much more of an experience it's exceeeding my ability to make it now as samples drying up from over utilisation and if only I could just get my 49 key midi keyboard out and just play it making my own new synth in surge to play it with which i can and have already done to the best i can by compiling around 100 unique hand tailored sounds in two sample packs coming soon details to be provided once it goes live on my site http://neonempire.42web.io

But it would be more appealing to be paid just right to live but to create without borders the intention that never really comes out of every song, for my own sense of yeah you made that right you gave it that wow factor for my self to feel yeah i did a good song the way it was supposed to be and for the public to have that experience as is and has been intended that it has been impossible to reach thus far without composing my self as samples are the best try but not the way it was meant to be composed and built i would then create for you guys and my self i want an experience for me and you to experience that same thing, money is second to that other than living without worrying it's all about making you guys and my self say oh yeah oh wow! i hope i can someday give you all that i do.

I don't want "Fortune And Glory" as Indiana Jones famously said I'm content with living as usual but creating something epic with every single production there isn't really a living well there is no living for almost every single producer or musician but what I'd be most content with is knowing that everything I make is something that surprises me and everyone who hears it and makes takes them through an experience in osund every time not just they listen to it and forget it once or it does not even remotely interest them there has to be a wow factor to every sound inside that track that just sucks my self in and the audience every time. It has to be epic period in every way with every single sound ideally all sounds hand tailored to it by your truly.