When I left off from my previous story The Drugging of my Youth I mentioned my resulting spiritual awakening and that's what I'd like to talk about here. Age 20
Being that my animal sanctuary was growing I took a course in the veterinary field to be better equipped to handle any health situations that might arise. I had initially thought of it as a field in which I wanted to work until I learned that not only would what's required of me not line up with my moral values but we were basically glorified receptionists and I was expected to throw my brain in the trash bin to take phone calls and fold laundry. Something I could have done without the course. In short we were deceived and whilst that was disappointing, there was no backing out so I chose to treat it as a fun learning opportunity that would ultimately benefit my animals and came out at the top of my class anyways.
I never did pay for it though and thankfully 7 years later my debt has been revoked
During the course we had a project on animal welfare and this was absolutely horrifying to those of us who knew not the extent of the abuse in the world. Many tears and having to leave the room would happen on those days. I was enraged, hurt and deeply saddened by what I learned. I would harbor resentment for my fellow humans and feel misanthropic as a result. But it would ultimately lead me down rabbit holes I never imagined.
We also had a part of the course called 'Personal Development Planning' where I learned of Carl Jung's work. The college that hosted our vet course was actually a 'Center for art & technology' whose courses mostly revolved around digital arts and such. They adopted the vet course from another college that went under because it was so popular. That being said, it may have been the reason the majority of my classmates ridiculed the 'PDP' class. I personally loved it and garnered much usefulness from the experience. It gave me a space to talk about the things I was learning outside the course at home that at times clashed with what I was learning in the vet course itself.
For example we were taught that the pineal glands only purpose is to produce melatonin. A hormone that regulates sleep patterns. Nothing of the DMT (N,N-dimethyltryptamine) that is produced when we are dreaming and in other states such as near death experiences. Very interesting topic to research.
I grew up in a pretty generic household, we watched lots of tv, played video games, traveled, never questioned the status quo. Something metaphysical has definitely been a driving force towards my thirst for knowledge & truth beyond what I was told.
I didn't have speakers on my computer at the time and somehow ended up reading Ben Stewart's Documentary: Kymatica. I recall this as a defining moment for me as I was deeply moved by it. Shortly after discovering this, I decided to make a facebook account with the sole purpose of connecting with people all over the world whom were also on a spiritual journey and exposing unsavory truths.
You can checkout in my notes where I shared many articles exposing corruption back in 2010 here - https://www.facebook.com/tasha.jade.92/notes?lst=100001329544381%3A100001329544381%3A1517708105
It's been nothing short of incredible taking part in the comradery that overtook social media in the pursuit to share truth, make connections and change paradigms. I've encountered such wonderful and inspiring people such as 
This was a very interesting time in my life. Having just been abandoned by my first relationship of 4 years I was quite hurt in the beginning. But sometimes we have to break apart so that new light can get in and like a phoenix rise again. I can learn from this even now because fast forward another 4 years and I get told I was the best thing to ever happen to him. What a mindfuck but had to be honest that his disappearance was the best thing to ever happen to me.
I hardly even slept upon my 'awakening' life was much too thrilling for sleep. "I'll sleep when I'm dead" I thought. I also didn't require much sustenance, I think I must've been feeding off the sun or air. I affectionately refer to this state as 'God mode' and connecting with source. I encompassed feelings of everything & nothing. The entire world's pain, fear, joy, love. And no I wasn't doing any psychedelics, this was just my natural state for some time. I was in a constant state of ecstasy for about a year until I apparently didn't feel challenged enough and specifically asked the universe for a challenge.
Til next time... Be careful what you wish for!
