I’ve had enough.
Not just of this or that person—no, of everything in general. Of this suffocating inertia, this feeling of moving forward blindly through thick fog, never quite sure if I’m making progress or just spinning my wheels. Sometimes, it even feels like I’m going backward, as if every effort only pushes me one step further from where I want to be. Time keeps slipping away, and nothing seems to change.
Right now, I’m drowning in paperwork. Endless forms, documents to sign, deadlines to meet—it’s all just a mountain of bureaucratic tasks that eat up my days without any real sense of progress. And then there’s the waiting. Waiting for responses, waiting for appointments, waiting for things to finally move forward. Every day that passes is another day of spending money—again and again—on real-life projects, investments that should pay off, legal steps that should lead somewhere. But so far? Nothing. Or at least, not enough to justify the time and energy I’ve poured into it.
What frustrates me the most is the agonizing slowness of the people I’m paying to handle the legal side of things. They drag their feet, postpone meetings, take weeks to reply to a single email. It’s as if my time doesn’t matter. As if I have nothing better to do than wait for their convenience. And while they waste my time, I’m the one left stagnating—losing motivation, losing focus, losing my drive.
I won’t bore you with all my personal problems—though, let’s be real, they’re weighing heavily on my mind. They irritate me, distract me, make it impossible to fully concentrate on what really matters. Because yes, writing here, tinkering with little bots on this site—that’s not my job. It’s my escape, my hobby, the only thing that still brings me a little joy in this sea of frustration and doubt. A way to clear my head, to remind myself that I can still create, innovate, have fun.
But even that, sometimes, feels hard to enjoy. As if everything is tainted by this lingering frustration, this sense of being trapped in a system that gives me no room to breathe. So I wonder: Will things ever get better? Will I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel? Or am I just going to keep struggling in the dark, spending without results, waiting for something that never comes?
I don’t know. For now, I grit my teeth, keep going, and try to hold onto hope. Because if I give up now, who’s going to fight for me?
