It's good to hear you were able to find some rest for a few hours. It's time to focus on you after all those years. You sacrificed too much and I am sure that god agrees with me it's your time to shine. No matter how hard it is know you are not alone! See this as a reward. You have friends, a lovely woman you see as your daughter. You survived so much and are skilled.
If you feel sad there's nothing wrong with showing it and sharing how you really feel. It doesn't make you a weak person but will even help others to deal with the same way. Together we can create something positive out of all the pain we have to endure because of those who took us for granted.
I think this is the way god rewards you for all the good you did, your hard work

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