Jul 7
There is a girl at school who does not like me for some reason, just out of the blue. I like her myself and I never did anything bad to her. She often says mean things to me. Like today during the cleaning I got a broom out. She told me that I should mop today because I swept yesterday. As it was true, I got out a dustcloth and waited for the floor to be swept. Someone asked me why am I lazing around and I said that I am waiting because the floor is till messy. That girl was nearby and she mumbled something like "why don't you sweep it yourself" and that I am annoying. And what had I done? Nothing!
Jul 8
In the afternoon and hang out in the street for about 4 hours. I wore a swimsuit underneath my clothes and we were going to splash in water but dad didn't let me. So mean! As I expected, he said something about it being a game for 2 year olds. So I went back home and did homework for there was nothing else to do. It was amazing weather but.
Jul 9
Today we went to mum's friend's place for lunch and had a mini barbecue. I was enjoying it until they started talking about a trip to hot springs. I was saying that I don't like the idea and they were laughing at me and making fun of it. It was awkward. Not very fair. In Japanese hot springs you are expected to be all naked. I wouldn't be myself if I even remotely considered the idea!!
After getting home I went outside to play. We built a secret house with the kids from the neighbourhood most were at least 5 years younger than me . I was the main one building and the little ones were excited about collecting sticks and leaves for it. I am very popular with little kids. Like one of them wouldn't get on the swings with her own sister but she does with me. I ended up falling off the swings though. Got covered in bruises.
Jul 12
Today we left for a school excursion to Mt Fuji. I had to be at school by 6am. I enjoyed the drive. The view was very pretty. We drove up to a certain point and went hiking on the mountain. I finished the first out of the girls. I felt very tired and hot on bus afterwards and at the hostel it turned out that I had 38 degrees fever. Everyone asked me if I was ok. I even got tired of replying "yea, thanks". I appreciated their kindness though. Perhaps people don't talk to me at school not because they hate me but because they don't know what to say. I ended up having to go to hospital at 9pm. I really didn't want to but the drive was nice. I could not fall asleep till late because the girls kept chatting about love dramas. I wished I could have joined with everyone. The next day I had high fever from the time I woke up and stayed sleeping for most of the day instead of going on a trip to the caves and I really wanted to go.
Jul 15
Last night at 11 pm mum and dad decided to teach me that I have to walk straight. I am not actually that slouched but sometimes I am. And they say that I have to change now because if I don't it will be too late. And they kept asking why I wouldn't make an effort to be straight. Why didn't I tell them that I am? In fact, I could only think that I slouch so that my breasts didn't show. How could I possibly answer them?
After the school today I went to the summer festival. Yuki was still at her club and so I went with Karen at first. I had shaved ice and some drink. It was a lot of fun, I guess because of my good mood. The haunted house was great again. At the end we just listened to live music. Most of the time it drizzled but no one would think of leaving. Yuki seems to be about to fall in love. The boy seems ok, which is such a rare thing! They are just friends now but Yuki thinks very well of him. She admits she can fall for him if he was better looking. This is all very enjoyable but I miss Russia so badly!!
