I am somewhat living my current life not so the way that I want. Well, there were things that I want in this life that I am living but sometimes there were times that the current life that I am living is not enough.
For my life now, I am much happy because there were things that I did it for myself and I gain more experience compared before, well, with my life now, I can do whatever I want without needing the permission to my parents especially my dad who was strict in things when I was still a kid.
Compare to before, when I was still a student, my parents were very strict that we need to sleep on time between nine to ten in the evening because we have to do in the next morning and we will be doing our work around the house.
These days were different that I can say that I can do the things that I didn't do in the past like making decisions for myself rather then relying to someone or anyone that decides for me. Although, there were times that I need some opinions to anyone because I was or rather confused of things and weighing things for pros and cons for other things but aside from that I decide on my own.
I said in my first paragraph that there were things that there were times that it is not enough because it feels like I can explore more or I can do more of the things in life. Although, I was happy but I was thinking to myself that to expand and do more than do less to my current life.
It feels like I am stuck on doing less and less compared on doing more to it and improving oneself needs motivation that you need to spark on things the way you want it to be.
