"So, as a consequence I can give up on every perception I think I have, for I am anyway a puppet towards collectiveness."

I am unable to grasp how this follows from the idea that we aren't fully informed and independent. Rather, such perceptions as I am availed I then regard as that much more valuable because of my awareness I am incapable of perceiving so much that exists. Since so much of what exists is imperceptible to me, implications inherent in my perceptions of what I can perceive are then all I can have of the rest of what exists, and therefore gain import in my mind, not that I find my lack of perception demoralizing and discouraging.

That limitation of my capacity is what it is, and my response is to reduce my expectations of my competence commensurately, while undertaking to be as competent as is possible to me.