There are times in your life where you have to understand that this is the time you have to change things now.
You don't like your situation change it you don't like your environment change it leave it you don't like who you would have to call with yourself every circumstance is bound for change so that is how you respond to start something you have been postponing
walk away from that thing that keeps draining you.
Stop waiting for that perfect moment
opportunity your brain will often choose a familiar place but over a familiar possibility because at least that means you see that predictable that is why people stay in bad jobs bad companies and everything but you have the agency you can choose from different places.
You can start over you can change direction you can become someone stop waiting for that life changing situation and change your life now do the right thing at the right time and build your life to what you want it to be.