Time : 1:47
There is something about midnight that makes your brain act funny, everywhere is quiet, the world is asleep, and suddenly your mind decides that now is the best time to bring up thoughts you didn’t invite, Random thoughts, deep thoughts, unnecessary thoughts, all of them show up together like uninvited guests.
One random thought that always pops into my head at midnight is whether it is possible to go back in time and unmake certain decisions, not the big dramatic movie type ones, but those small choices that quietly shaped everything, The kind of decisions that felt normal at the time, but later turned out to be crossroads you did not even realize you were standing on.
I lie there and think, What if I had chosen differently? .What if I said no instead of yes?bWhat if I walked away earlier? What if I stayed a little longer?
You know at Midnight, it has a way of replaying life like a slow movie, scenes you forgot about suddenly feel fresh, and the Conversations you brushed off now sound louder, and you start wondering how one decision led to another, and another, until you ended up exactly where you are now.
The funny thing is that during the day, I don’t think really think about these things this like so deeply, during daytime I am always busy, see me ,I am moving, hustling, taking care of one or two things, also acting strong, but then at midnight you see me? midnight me is honest, i ask alot of questions.
Sometimes I imagine what it would be like to go back just once , not to change everything, but to protect myself better. To choose peace earlier, To avoid situations that later cost me my confidence, my energy, or my happiness, Not because I hate my life now, but because I know I deserved better in some moments.
But then another thought follows quickly after that one, If I changed those decisions, would I still be who I am today? Would I have the same strength? The same awareness? The same lessons?
That is when I realize that maybe the reason that we cannot go back in time is because growth doesn’t work that way, and maybe some decisions had to hurt and maybe some paths had to be rough so that we could learn how to really survive, adapt, and stand on our own feet.
Still, at midnight, logic doesn’t always win, the heart certainly speaks louder, regret whispers softly and Hope sits very quietly in one corner now reminding you that tomorrow still certainly exists.
Eventually, I would just take a deep breath and turn to the other side of my bed, and now remind myself of one important thing and that is I can’t unmake the past, but I can still make better decisions moving forward, and maybe that is the closest thing we have to time travel learning, growing, and choosing differently next time.
Midnight thoughts don’t always need answers, Sometimes, they just need to be acknowledged… then gently put to rest.
This is my entry to the midnight letters prompt
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