Looking back at the past few months, or even the last year, eh… life has not exactly been soft, I have had moments where I seriously asked myself, “What is this one again?” You see things were just happening left and right, and sometimes I did not even know how I was managing to keep up, but somehow, I did.
I remember the days I cried quietly, wondering why things were not going the way I planned,there were things I had high hopes for ,goals, dreams, ideas , that just refused to click, but the thing about looking back is that you get to see how much you have grown, even if it does not feel like growth in the moment, One major thing I have learnt is that growth does not always look like progress,sometimes it is just surviving,just waking up and trying again is growth. And mehn, I have done a lot of that lately.
Another thing I have learnt is patience, not the “sit and fold your arms” kind o , I mean the kind of patience where you are still trying, still believing, even when things aren’t working, It is not easy sha,but somehow I have come to understand that everything does not have to happen all at once.
There was a time I felt like everybody was moving ahead and I was just standing still, you go online and see people achieving this and that, and you start to feel like your own life is on slow motion,but I had to calm myself and say, “Treasure, everyone’s timing is different.” So now, i am learning to move at my own pace , no unnecessary pressure.
So moving forward, I just want to do things that align with where I see myself, I do not want to live on autopilot anymore, I have started writing more, and being more intentional about the way I use my time, even the way I relate with people has changed, I am more conscious of the kind of energy I allow around me.
I am also setting goals that are realistic for me , nothing too loud or dramatic, just things that keep me going, and I am taking small steps daily, even when the motivation is not there, I still try to do at least one thing that moves me closer to where I want to be.
I also want to be more grateful, looking back has shown me that even though things were hard, I had people who showed up for me, I had moments of joy, laughter, and little wins that kept me sane, So moving forward, I am holding on to gratitude and letting it guide me.
See if there is one thing I can say with confidence, it is that I am not the same person I was months ago, I am growing, evolving, learning and most importantly, I am still here.
This post is my response to the Ladies Of Hive Prompt Week 249
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