Today was an interesting day. I was asked for an interview for a new position. Of the advantages – the salary is twice as high as the current one. It would seem that there is something to think about. But I still had doubts. First of all – through the mode of operation and location of the office. Somewhere inside I knew that probably no, it wouldn't work. But I should have at least tried. And I went to the city.
I got to the city by car, then by subway. There is no parking where the office is. It sounds trivial about the subway, but for me it was a separate quest - I haven't used this transport for about forty years. It turned out to be not so difficult, I even arrived without incident 😄
The conversation with the employer went well. We discussed the terms and agreed in principle. In words, everything sounded good.
And then I just got home. And at the moment when I opened the door and sat down on the sofa, everything became clear without any thought.
I realized how much I was used to the freedom to dispose of my own time and space. The road in the subway among people, without the protected space of their own car around - turned out to be much more difficult for me than I expected. It's not about fatigue, it's about something deeper — about the fact that my brain has been working differently for years and is not ready to return to the old format.
Another point that outweighed the scales was the number of days of rest. There are half as many free days in the new place than I have now. In addition, the vacation is half as short. And a whole pack is waiting for me at home - and the regular prolonged absence of me at home is not the same as the rare exceptions that take place now.
So I refused. Not because of the fear of change, but because I clearly saw that this is not my lifestyle now. Although the figure in the offer was very attractive. But let's be honest - I will just spend this money on gasoline, as a result I will lose my freedom and I will get terribly tired for the same money I have now....
