Me vs Relationships

Hey guys. I don't think I'm in the stage of my life where I have to be bothered bout who I'm gonna spend the rest of my life with.

I'm in my mid-20s, I dnt think any relationship I find myself in should be directed towards forever. For God's sake, I'm still trying to discover myself!

I have recently made a conscious decision to have no affiliation with any girl all year long. Just use all that energy to be exclusively productive.

The thing I have discovered about the ladies is their superpower... remembering all the shit we guys ever did. We could be having an argument and she brings back some shit that was done so long ago, I wonder how it's still so vivid I her head.

I think the point of reminding a guy about his previous fuck ups is to make him realise he ain't perfect either and to try harder in keeping the relationship going, but that just has the opposite effect on me to be frank. I just see it as a better reason to get the fuck out of there.

I believe right now, any kind of relationship I'm in, sexual or not, if I have to put a conscious effort in making it work, it just ain't worth it. That should be left for the next decade of my life. This is the stage I wanna effortlessly connect with people. My really close friend disagrees tho, but what does he know? He should lemme be.

I can't deny I have learnt and mature from my previous experience, but I have the mindset that the one I'm gonna have to put up with for the rest of my life hasn't even been met... so why the fuck am I gonna struggle to keep any relationship alive?!