Many times changes or leaving our comfort zone is very difficult because of the fear or uncertainty of losing the comforts and things we have as certain.
Many, if not all of us, have had two options before us: Stay where we are or take a leap forward. Some have dared to jump and others have preferred to stay where they are.
However, most of the time, change means evolution. It is true that absolute success is not always achieved, but in the process of change we learn, grow and develop new skills that make us better human beings and more competent professionals.
Reading your reflection I realize that, in spite of not being able to fulfill the publication or realization of your writings, the process served you for the work you are doing now.
That is what it is all about.
Remember that happiness is not the end, but the path.
Thank you for sharing.
Greetings and best regards.