Will I ever feel normal again?
My problem is great depression which leads me to crying every night and being on the verge of crying during the day. I am tired of this feeling and want to get rid of it asap, but I have no idea how to make it happen. My depression was caused by change of occupation. I used to be working in a more friendly atmosphere before but had to change my job because of low salary. At my current workplace I earn twice as much money, but I lack communication and the atmosphere of comfort. I feel ill at ease here.
Each morning I hate my job and each evening I kinda like it because it is prestigious and paid enough for me at the moment. But each morning I fight myself to go to work. But to tell you the truth, my new job is not the only reason for my depression, it was only a trigger. I've got many reasons to feel depressed.
First of all, lack of communication is observed not only at my workplace, but also in my private life. All my good friends live far from me and this makes me upset and feel lonely. I have no one to talk to in person. Phone calls won't do. I need some advice, some help to find a way out of this situation I am in now.
The only thing I know is that I wanna be happy and I wanna feel it. A lot of people may think that I am crazy cause I have this prestigious job, I have this pretty face, I have some talents others don't possess, but still I don't feel any harmony in my life. I feel frustrated so much that I wanna scream and cry all the time. My mood is mostly annoyed and depressed all the time! how can I change the situation?
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