I never thought it would happen to me. For most of the world the news is that a powerful storm shook the surface of Mars and destroyed a total of 2 billion structures. I knew, though, on the inside, that what I was about to experience was something different. I was witnessing from not just a different perspective but from a different reality altogether.
I'm Lisa and I am a radio host. I don't say this as some kind of conceit, but for the last ten years I have lived a normal life. I loved my family, my friends, my pets and my job. I lived my life as every other 30-year-old I knew did, so what could I possibly have to tell the world about such a normal lifestyle?
On January 17th, 2012, that all changed. I am a child of the German Police, so radio was my job. I had been doing that for the last three years, starting from the very bottom in radio. A once in a lifetime opportunity came my way.
Overnight I went from a receptionist of a small German radio station to an internationally known radio personality. I literally at that moment was a nobody, but overnight I was on CNN, I was on the news, and in the books of history. Within the same month, I was not only now a leading radio personality, but I was also a celebrity and a public figure. This overnight fame threw my whole life into a complete rut it still hasn't out of yet.
As you can imagine that was a bit of a surprise. Our real lives were the same as our fake ones. That isn't to say that everyone doesn't change how they act, but for the most part we kind of just went about our daily routines. There was only about maybe two or three people that were actually affected by my professional life as a television host. The rest of my life was exactly the same as it was before.
That all changed a month later. The first thing that changed was the sky. That is the sky, not the weather. This sky was not one that you would see in any other time before. It was much brighter, more blue and especially more vivid. It's always been that way and that is why even when I left the station to go home and have dinner, I still noticed that it was more beautiful than I remembered.
The second thing was different about the expounding sky. The stars appeared brighter than ever. I still remember seeing them with my own eyes for the first time. I looked up and wondered about the time, but knew that I was going to get a surprise.
The surprise came quickly in my kitchen as I had just walked through my front door. I saw what I can only describe as a vortex of light. The light was brighter than the Sun, but there was nothing standing between me and it. I stared straight at it for a couple of minutes, but I couldn't see a single star. It was like my very own private miracle of Gloria. I didn't tell anyone about it, but I couldn't resist looking up every time I came home.
It became the symbol of hope for what I hope would be the best time of my life. It was the symbol that reminded me that I could be the person I have always wanted to be. Because of the lights surrounding it, I could trick myself into thinking that everything was perfect and normal, while the reality of my life continued to sink.
It became stronger over time, but was still not strong enough to overpower the intensity of the storms. I can't describe the feeling of that first battle. It has to be experienced to be fully understood.
What I can tell you about it though is that I had discovered the potential to make things better for all. That discovery was what stuck with me for the next five years. I was able to get the world to believe that I really did have this power and that I really did have this ability to make the sky brighter.
Now here on Mars, I should have been celebrating my career accomplishments. I had gone from a nobody to an internationally known radio personality in the same month. Instead, I was just mourning my life lost.
It is hard to describe because I had accepted that life was changing. I accepted that I was going to be famous and that people would want to be a part of my life. I had accepted that fact that people were going to be interested in what I was doing. What I didn't accept was for my life to be in a worse position than it was when I was a nobody.
My expectations of what I had achieved were not met. Instead of being happier for me, I was attacked for my success. My greatest mistake was that I finally achieved my most wanted dream. I was on a radio show, I was on the cover of magazines, I was considered popular, I was a celebrity and I was making a living doing something I loved. It was all gone. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't live like this anymore.
I stared at the vortex of light one day and instead of thinking about how I would change the world, I got an idea.
I grabbed a lighter out of the cupboard. I walked into the bathroom and started a fire. I remember watching my life burn in front of my eyes for the first time. I remember how awesome it was. I remember how the world looked different how the fire shifted the colors all around me.
I then walked back into the kitchen and thought about how I had experienced my life. I thought about how amazing it was going to be on Mars. I thought about how great it was that I was going to change the world.
I took out a glass that was full of water to drink. I had it in my hands for a couple of seconds, but then walked down to the bathroom and poured the water on the fire. I sat on the bed and watched my life go up in flames. As my eyes turned to the door, I saw something that was truly out of this world.
It was the vortex of light from that morning. It was no longer a bright light, instead, it was a bright orgasm that was vibrating from sight to sound. It was mysterious, sensual, and mystical, and it was growing stronger.
The light was bigger than anything I had ever seen, I started wondering about all kinds of things. I wondered about where I had been, I wondered about what it was, I wondered about what it could do, I wondered about how the accident that led to its creation actually happened.
I knew that it was the most important thing I had ever seen. It was going to change everything. My eyes were still on that light every time I saw it.
