I tried to edit my post with your Take Five comment but it would not let me {sulk}... would have been good for a laugh.

when you practice to scan in advance quickly the piano scores and play in real-time and still looking always forward, and never stop or slow down, happens what happens.

I reckon that must be very difficult If you are reading something while still executing an earlier reading...the mind and fingers must get into a hectic tangle {frown}

they are there, in the closet waiting some better times and better me, no work or anything so I could practice it for some 8 hours a day! Man, dont do it to me 😂 I am already shrinking in confidence and thoughts about how I can not make it to study new things

No No NO ... no need for 'shrinking in confidence' ... what little I have heard you play beautifully {clap on the back} ... and one day the time will be right for old George's Rhapsody in Blue

Chick Corea is gone ...R.I.P..... @mipiano definitely lives on !!!