So sorry to hear he passed away!
It sounds so sudden and it is sad to know, something can suddenly come on and I know the feeling.

I hope in time, everyone that knew him can heal from this tragedy and be okay but the hurt you feel will be real for a while to come.

Enjoy your life and live it when you can, be happy once you have grieved and are okay to be happy again and condolences to all experiencing the loss! 😔😔