Keep that faith, sometimes it's all we have when things get really rough. You've been through way too much in the last few years and now this compounding on top of it. Many would have already given up and consigned themselves to die. It's great that you are striving to get stronger and feel better. The anxiety I get all too well and fight it daily for the same reasons. It's really more of matter of time than what if? But we have to keep on striving to survive, and I admire your courage to keep pushing forward despite all that's happened recently!