center, February

Family-centered ^Guidance ^Wisdom	My decision-making ultimately bases on what my mom wants. I aim to meet her expectations. I believe I act only in terms of my family, like staying home is only to watch my siblings.
Money-centered ^Guidance ^Wisdom	Profit is my decision-making criterion, especially seen in seeking artistic opportunities. Money-making is the lens through my life is seen. I am concerned about a job, my blog, and my art, at times, only for money.
Possession-centered ^Security	I often compare what I have to what others have - followers, items, money or recognition.
Pleasure-centered ^Guidance ^Wisdom	I make decisions based on what will give me the most pleasure. I see the world in terms of what's in it for me, my art, my hunger and desire.
Enemy-centered ^Security ^Wisdom	I seek self-justification and validation from the like-minded. I am very defensive; I rarely admit I make mistakes.
Church-centered ^Guidance	I am guided by how others will evaluate my actions in the context of church teachings and expectations.
Self-centered ^Guidance	My judgment criteria include: "What I want..." "What I need..." "What am I gonna get..?" My ability to act is limited to my own resources, without the benefits of interdepedency. I even lost a friend because I don't know how to use his help.

In short, for all my shortcomings, there is a center, at the underlying issue. Now, not all of the centers are inherently negative, yet my dependency on them generates a weakness of character because as these matters change, my core changes. I am as constant as a foundation built on sand, swept away by every passing wave. I took time to draft a personal mission statement, so as to shore myself up, against a barrage of influence that can threaten to destabilize my being. Even the process of writing felt more empowering than nearly any of these centers could hope to enable. It is not a finite act; I will revise the statement as I determine the principles that resonate with my being. It's an activity that I understand now is more necessary than I could have ever wished for.

What do you find at your center? Does it enable you? What priniciples would strive for, if you desired change?

center, February | Ecency