Wow that song is deep and touching. Your emotions pour out and the lyrics exist like an existential S.O.S on the beach of your soul that you laid out with your previous text explaining your struggle.

Some would say I'm possessed, yeah,
But I'll confess I've just been obsessed
With life and death and emptiness, I guess.

That there I think (imo) is what you need to detach from. I believe forces outside of this reality take position over us in both negative and positive ways. We channel much of it without awareness and even realisation that we can be influenced.. but it certainly is a thing.

We can find proof by recollection of past trauma.

Reflect on the death of a loved one, a broken heart left from a failed relationship or just the current state of humanity. Such reflections affect our breath to literally feel like it tries to leave you. As a simple sigh or as an intense cry. This (imo) are signs of these forces outside of us. That exist in some unknown place "frozen" as "guardians" or as the trauma of that profound moment, ready to be called upon when we give that "time" focus.

Equally, positive effects take your breath away also..

As overwhelming Euphoria or tears of joy. The power of it able to leave you feeling like you're "floating on air" ..such is love for example. So naturally that's the emotional benefit of connecting to another soul that we consider a soul mate. The force rules our existence to the point we consider ourselves as just a half, unless we're with that other half. So just maybe that's achieved by the existence of a "glue" between space and time.

Love grants otherworldly connectivity.

So my advice is, embrace the experience as a challenge that you'll overcome but also don't feed that negative entity that looms over you. Because it itself is seeking you out for it to have existence. Specially because you're down. Beyond our realm I see a sea of forces that we grant ability when we are in a dark place but equally, positive forces want our light to grant them guidance through that darkness.

Don't let your light dim.

One thing I believe has "super powers" is our sense of smell. Aromatherapy might help you. I recommend tea tree oil (Melaleuca). It's a very relaxing smell and if you use it with some meditation I believe it would have positive effects. Also tiger balm has a similar effect. Put it on back and front of neck, behind ears, temples, and under nose. You will likely get a relaxed sinus and purge some mucus and tears. This is a good thing. Use that also to seek release. Cry if you need to. Let go of pain and let in positive energy with that experience.

I really believe this process grants us higher cleansing. Of mind and soul. Meditation obviously silences the mind so the feeling of embracing the coolness feeling around the house of that temple (head/brain) is really a beautiful experience.

Music is also a great addition and clearly that's a great outlet for you. I hope you can at least know your song was really appreciated here so I shared these words with you with pure intentions and in hope that they might at the least exist as words of support. Take care.