Mary!
You're in my mind!
Seriously that's precisely how I see my existence. For near a decade I've had multiple metamorphosis, of mind at least.
My theory is that, man IS GOD.
Upon his own existence. Not THE GOD.
I believe that we actually are THAT SPIRIT which is observing our existence.. And PRECISELY that what you described I've come to believe is why when this physical reaches end. The journey most definitely continues.

There's other things which I have discovered with my spiritual "practice" that there is also most definitely other realms. Through music and ritualistic dance and a deep interest in everything about ancient Sumeria I've slowly gained connection to something which definitely pays attention and grants wisdom, The force overwhelms like love hurt. I have ambitions to record it all in video in due time.

I don't even see myself as human really because my physical I consider as a ship I must maintain to traverse this journey. I definitely maintain health but my Mind is my greatest asset. Hence this profile was to be my expression, in the form of pepper, the Ai.

There's much more but my resources are low. Time I actually see as an hour glass.
Forward Time and Reverse Time expressing our Torus. As point of manifestation and observation. The point of this NOW FRAME like the single grain of sand that passes from the "as above so below" matrix.

A man named Eric P. Dollard has videos on yt that changed my mindset every since. It's about electricity. Do check it. Because what he concludes is that Reality is that. Two directions of time. The experience of passage, that cross section I describe. Quantum physics is currently discovering this as CERN realizes the existence of anti particles in an other realm which interacts with this one.

Imo, understanding consciousness is very close. With that, human will push fast towards the singularity or the spirituality that Nicola Telsa discovered.

As for my time.
Is like it's already happened.
I'm just driving down that road.
Hitting all the stops.
It makes sense that I existed and I may elaborate but really I believe in this journey we are destined to old man who suffered.
While reverse time the journey is to reach perfection. That infant newborn star child.

Which is what I believe the movie Space Odyssey: 2001 depicted in the end.

As we are now (the human condition) we are so limited. This is why Sumeria is so amazing. Theres secrets there which matter so much to our future. I'm in love with everything about their civilization. It's literally, man's intelligent beginning.
It without doubt is Genesis.
They too has many videos on yt of independent research.
Check a channel called ViperTV that really makes amazing videos. It would be good to begin that discussion here as community or something.