I chose 'Mum'

I chose tired days and late nights binge watching Netflix or doing anything just to have a moment to myself over late nights and lazy mornings. I chose 'Mum'

I chose tiny toes, a button nose and toys falling under my feet, I chose 'Mum'

I chose noise and chaos, an 'un-hinched' house, cold meals, 5 minute baths and unwashed hair. I chose 'Mum'

I chose parents evening, nativity plays, tears, tantrums, bed-wetting, sterilizing and play dates. I chose 'Mum'

I chose being skint, cheap holidays, debt, catalogue presents and dirty jeans. I chose 'Mum'

I chose sleepless nights, midnight feeds, social isolation, tension, anxiety, irritability. I chose 'Mum'

I chose happiness, everlasting love, pain, heartbreak all rolled into one moment. I chose 'Mum'

I chose my children, my new role that will last with me forever, the moments I mutter 'go away' under my breath. The brief moments of regret, the wishing of freedom and ultimately knowing I chose the best thing this world has to offer.

I chose you.