i don’t know about you but creatively for at least the first three months of this year i’ve been uncooperatively uninspired to create, like anything. i’ve even bought myself some new tools, new tripod, a new mic, new device to record on and i’ve not even sat in front of it yet to record anything with it. I was kinda just coasting along uninspired by anything creatively.
i think it comes down to the fact(s) that there is just so many things going on in the world at the moment. the war in europe, climate data, price of living, food, gas prices, all of these cracks in the infrastructures of everyday life collapsing — it’s always a dodge and weave kinda situation.
On the whole thou, i’m doing alright, i’ve JUST started to creatively feel locked in again, five days into april and i’m starting to use organisation and productivity in my day to day instead of running headless, just tilling the rudder with a shaky hand and pointing in the hope direction.
I can’t put my finger on the why which is more of a question mark that pops up at least once a day while i’m trying to come to terms with how to break the deadlock.
in recent weeks, the energy has started to return however, i know that my time away in december really impacted the start of this year. i came back not feeling like the years had actually rolled over and it was one day fading into another — the break away and spending time with a loved one was most needed however, wish it was constant.
maybe that is part of the dent. realising that to be with your loved one you need to be earning a certain amount of money in this country. maybe i don’t want to be here, maybe that’s it. the trapped feeling of having family, people and connections here to the uk when really i should be elsewhere in the sunshine — getting motivated by the changing scenery of everyday life.
it’s not like i don’t have lots to work on. i’ve already started tinkering around the edges of it all, tweaked a profile here and there, promoted an older course, wrote out the foundations of the next, even got a collab project going on with my partner to create a brand new revenue stream using a brand new productivity tool. it’s there, it’s just a little existing instead of living out there amongst it all.
guess sometimes you just get in a funk. I’ve just never had one last so long, maybe it was part exhaustion. maybe i just needed to reframe. It’s certainly been eye opening about what kinda world we live in today. pure survival. i get concerned for the people who are struggling to make ends meet with crazy energy bills and the general upkeep of the daily illusion of life — you have to break out of that, downscale, adapt, get in your five a day where you can!
but there are positives.
the weather is nice, we are well and truly into spring, summer is coming. i’ve got a mind about me to raise funds for power tools, to do a massive deep clean on the place that i live and make that nice for the rest of the year. make memories where i can. heck, i even got a nice bottle of tequila to go at when my partner get’s over next!
the notion that i can just be this creativity engine without any other impacts elsewhere in my life is foolish. you have to account for the highs and lows as you go. rebalancing the internal engine, tuning it up, cleaning the ports out once in a while, rebuild and reframe. I’m an expert at doing that! :)
I do have a routine when things go a little sideways like this thou that others can follow — plenty of water, plenty of exercise/walking — don’t eat for the first hour of the day, literally get yourself all powered up and ready to roll before engaging any kind of work
do time blocking, make sure you brain dump on the daily and pick the top three things to work on, then block that out in the day, don’t stress about getting everything done in a day, you don’t have the mental capacity and energy for it without effecting something else.
learn to delegate, build those revenue streams that run on autopilot, outsource to others that you would spend more
humble x
