If one thing I've learned in all the years I've been told to be a hardened dreamer, it's that one for the future shouldn't worry. However, I more than once have let that part of the time (which I don't know if it exists) take away my sleep and steal my concentration when I'm focused on something I want to achieve. Among other things, because like Florentino Ariza, I have the strange virtue of giving good advice, of knowing what to do at the right times, but instantly applying to my life what I know, I have turned an eight, and I complicate everything, because so I have been , and that's who I am. But now I want to make an exception and think about how good it is to live knowing that there will be a tomorrow, and that my dreams are going to come true, that there can happen the things that I want, without taking the lens off this eternal 'now' that at the end of the day turns out to be the only thing I'm sure I have to get to live in the morning.
It's not a mental straw. I prefer to call it hope. And besides, I'd rather make it the engine of my actions. Because how ugly to live thinking that everything will go from bad to worse. Or live believing that the future is always going to be badr. Or let yourself be carried away by that slogan that has done so much damage to us and that it is better: "all past time was better" and no, it is not that the past has been better, and let us go backwards, it is not that necessarily the future is going to suck and that is why we should be as afraid of it as it is Can.
If I'm honest, I'm sometimes afraid to think about the future. However, my fear is not there, but in what I am doing here. Among other things because I understand the future as the result of my moves today. That's why I strive to make good decisions even if sometimes I don't. Other times I've been mortified my life thinking about what I want to happen, and it turns out that nothing of what I've wanted has ever happened because I've been left alone thinking and thinking. Today I'm sure I don't want to live hard for what i can go through anymore, and that doesn't mean I don't live in hope in what I want to happen.
Today I understand that there will be a tomorrow, and that part of what you will make up that morning, is my decision today. The other part is in the hands of what brings life and that I cannot control. From situations that get out of hand, but I still have to face. People who will teach me to see life differently and who will encourage me to place other bets. What I do know is that it's not time to shut me down to the infinite possibilities it brings with it every day.
On the other hand, I also understand that today I am living things that are the future of those times when I dreamed of doing and being what I do and am now. And I also think today is yesterday's morning. And that already this morning will not be more, that more dreams, more projects and more encounters will come. That crises will also change, and that today's frustrations will go into the background, or become others. Today I understand that there will always be tomorrow, and perhaps that is what inspires me to give what I have, to give hope the position it deserves.
For now (and I hope forever) no effort. Living this today that someday will be tomorrow. Living this morning it won't be more yesterday. Enjoying this today which is already yesterday's morning.