I ain't happy, I'm feeling glad
I got sunshine in a bag
I'm useless but not for long
The future is coming on
[Gorillaz]
Today, my mind feels like a rundown, abandoned building where thoughts are a jumble of trash left throughout the years by unwelcome visitors. I quite like the feeling in a strange kind of way as it gives me some different insights into the way it works and what it is capable of as I am still able to process well enough to pay attention to how it moves.
I wonder if we could investigate and dissect our thoughts cleanly and place them into piles of what is ours and what is someone else's we have taken aboard, how balanced would the piles be? I would suggest that much more of our thinking is that of others than we would care to ever admit. We are social animals with a long road to self-sufficiency and we rely heavily on others for years as they care for and protect us. It is natural that we will learn much of our patterns from them.
We rarely think about and may never investigate how deep the thoughts of others run through us to become our behaviours. And, once we have accepted our thinking as our own, we become largely blind to all of the trash and baggage we carry as we are not the ones who placed it there but, we have accepted it as normal.
How much can a mind change, how much can the behaviours of a person? Is it possible to shift who we thought we were into something completely different? In my opinion yes. Is it easy? Unlikely but who knows. I have seen many people change there entire demeanor through experiences they have had yet, nearly all of them have been negative changes based on extreme events. It isn't important that they changed negatively, but it is important that they were able to change at all as it indicates possibility.
Through different chemical compounds, we are able to change the way the mind, and therefore we, behave. A simple drink or two is indicative of this possibility. For me though, I am interested in being able to clean out the trash, tidy up the mind, empty out the suitcases that have been packed away in the attic filled with a whole lot of what I don't need and think freely. Create a space that is open to the new without having the useless pieces of the past filling the corners.
Perhaps going forward from that point, I can rebalance the thought scales and think more as me and less of what I have been trained to be.
Taraz
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