The team knows.
With a team meeting today, the announcement of my leaving the company was officially made, and that is that. I will clean my desk (nothing to clean as the spaces I use are flex) and be on my way by Friday. As I still qualify for my Q4 bonus, I will spend the week adding to that what I can perhaps, or instead just spend the time talking to colleagues and forego the cash. I have already reached about 70% of my targets anyway, so that gets me something.
Also, now that everyone knows, I will spend some of the time talking with some of the team and department leads, to see if they are willing to take me on for targeted consulting work. A lot of the needs I know they have would benefit from outside assistance, that doesn't have its hands tied by leadership in the same way. There can be a big difference between what leadership wants, and what they do to try and get there. I know I have something to offer, but will they take it?
Maybe not.
But, it is worth a try, because if I can convince them, it would help get my business up and running that much faster, as well as give me a much needed boost in terms of references. It has been a while since I have actively looked to build, so my network is a little sparse and fragile to say the least. It really is silly me for not doing the maintenance work over the years, but there is only so much energy in the tank at any one time.
Because the severance agreement essentially means I resigned and my supervisor said that it was through mutual agreement, my colleagues asked "what my plans are?", as if I really had something else in the pipeline. I just replied that I don't really know yet, but will take some time to work it out more fully. While I can't say anything about what is inside the contract I signed due to a non-disclosure, I am being as transparent as possible with people also.
Maybe it will help someone.
As I said a couple weeks ago when I found out about all of this, I believe that my transparency has cost me in the leadup to this situation, and has affected the outcomes. Perhaps it is a time where people are meant to just do what they are told unquestioningly, and that just isn't me. I am bad at playing that game.
What games am I good at?
That is a pertinent question that I don't have a clear answer for, because while I used to know what I am good at, I don't think those things are that relevant anymore. And, "retraining" isn't really what my brain is cut out to do either, so I am not sure what I am left with that is saleable. I have a lot of experience in many areas, but is it enough to be hirable?
I don't think so.
Not in Finland at least and I am not that interested in looking for completely remote work. Some people seem to really want it, but those I know who do it, never seem to last very long at any of the places, even though the salary might be okay. There is a reason that people who are only interested in the salary and not the job, aren't often hired. The companies know by now that money alone isn't enough for retention.
Unless the money is obscene. And even then....
If the money really was obscene though, I guess I could do any crappy job for a short period of time. One of my friends headed up finance in a large pharmaceutical and managed for almost ten years across a few countries, but eventually he tired of the stress and moved back to Finland. Wealthy.
Ten years isn't a long time.
In January, it will be eight years since I started writing on a blockchain. That is a pretty long time, and it is easy to track because my account is almost the same age as my daughter. I started this for her, I took the job I just lost for her, and perhaps in 2025, all the other work I have been doing will secure her financial future, and give her a better start in life than I received. I feel that if I can do that, then I have done better than my parents.
If I miss....
I don't know if there is going to be another train.
Taraz
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