What a weird fucking post.
After 7000+ posts on the blockchain, I don't think I have ever posted anything like this before. But since I am having my first surgery tomorrow, I might not get a chance to post anything again like it again. Who knows what will happen to my legs post-operation. I might not have legs at all.
I am not going to win any leg model gigs.
But I am hoping that the function will improve and I will be able to do more work with them to improve my ankle and foot strength. From what I have heard, one of the greatest indicators for future old age health, is foot strength and balance. When it comes to bodies, feet do a great deal of work and while I can "lift heavy things" my feet are well behind the fitness curve of the rest of me. I am rapidly approaching fifty years of age, and it is getting harder and harder to even maintain, let alone improve my physical health.
I took some "before" photos as I am interested to see what will happen after the fasciotomy, as once they slice the fascia open the muscle has more room to fill with blood, but is less contained. But hopefully once the swelling subsides and it heals, the pain associated with the compartment syndrome condition will be alleviated and I will be able to take long, brisk walks without extreme pain stopping me.
As a kid, I used to be really athletic and while I was never a distance runner, I was able to run all day on a sports field. This ended when I got ill at sixteen and spent a long time doing nothing, which is also when my legs started to fundamentally change too. Finally, when I started to move again, I just couldn't move well. At the time I took solace by telling myself, "at least I have my brain" - which made having a stroke caused by a dissected carotid artery, all the more ironic.
But now I just say "FUCK IT" and choose not to puss out of doing anything I need to do, whether it is housework or slaving in the garden, or lifting and cycling at the gym. Life is too short to be a pussy.
This doesn't mean I am not nervous of the operation though, because even though it is routine, lots of things can always go wrong. But, I guess that is what life insurance is for (though mine is worth bugger all). But hopefully the surgeon is as good with her hands as I have been told she is and things run smoothly. I haven't had stitches since I was a kid either, so I wonder what it will be like to have new scars on my body.
I wear shorts as often as I can.
I barely wear pants at home.
I have always wondered about how those people that do a lot of cosmetic surgery feel about themselves after. Especially those people who make drastic changes. Do they think they look better? Do they feel like themselves? Do they wish they didn't have it done? Do they wonder what others are thinking about them? While this isn't cosmetic surgery, it is still changing my body.
Will I feel different about myself?
As always, time will tell.
Taraz
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PS. Anyone noticed that it is only men who seem to have a foot fetish? While I don't have a foot fetish myself, I have never heard of a woman who is into feet. Have you?
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