Dec 18 2018
The real dew forest
What amazing times we’re living in Times where the world becomes more and more global and interconnected, time of raising above borders and nationalities, times of free self expression, times of change most definitely.
Background info
So I’m Tal Horesh , direct translation is dew woods or dew forest , I didn’t choose yet what I like more , it’s complicated because my grandfathers last name was Vald ( in German it means forest) but when he wanted to “ hebrewffy” it my grand mother didn’t like the sound of forest in Hebrew , so now when I translate it to English I’m thinking maybe to go back to the original name vald = forest rather then woods . Anyways enough with that bull crap , I was born in israel lived there till I was 13 , moved to the states with my parents and when I turned 18 they moved back to israel and I stayed there for 6 more years , working and traveling all across, cost to cost , even got to Hawaii and lived there for lil while.
Little after I turned 24 I returned to israel .
Anxiety as a gate to awakening
I felt like I couldn’t breath anymore at the states , in israel people are culturally more friendly on the deeper connection heart to heart open level , rather than just being nice, and I needed that kind of environment in my life, I felt very lonely and empty .I began to wonder about life and the meaning of it all from a young age , sense I could remember my self really, but not until I was 21 that I really started to dig into it .
I began having anxiety, back then I didn’t know what was happening, I just felt like I was going to die or faint , I was scarred that I would faint in public and people wouldn’t help , or make fun of me , shit like that ... it got the worst when I went to visit my friend in dastin Florida , it was a gathering of 3 of my closest childhood friends and I was scared to leave the hotel . Somewhere within this all I felt like I wasn’t going crazy and that I’m just became more sensitive to something new I never felt before , it was painful and I felt like I needed a remedy, but medication was not an option for me .
Wisdom of Kabbalah
I knew that what was happening to me was natural , I knew it was because something internal and I knew it because I felt it , like growth pain . So I began searching for inner meaning and tumbled into the wisdom of Kabbalah and it turned my life around and up in ways I will share in future posts , but I began studying and practicing very dedicatedly form age 22-28 , the study was one of the main reasons of my return to israel , so I can be close to the teacher and the group .
Slowly my anxiety went away until it totally disappeared, it’s not magic it’s just changing you from the inside so the realty changes as well.
Exit of the “cave” and the “rebirth “
In the past almost 3 year that I gradually left the Intense study . And began lifting back old passions such as music and art.
Instead of waking up at 2am to go to a Kabbalah lesson I found my self going to jams in Tel Aviv , I felt like this is what I needed to do and this is what I did , tho the study and what I gained remains within me now I’m living a totally different life style .
Music and art.
I wrote , composed and sang from young age , I’ll share my music with you in my future posts... I started with middle eastern music moved to hip hop ( I was a damn good rapper too) at 16 got introduced to the hippie music ( classic rock , reggae) and kinda stayed on that sense then .
I hang around with artist of all types , and I drink from their influence. I began to walk the path of the artist ( it’s a challenge : every morning to write 3 pages of just what comes out , I will begin sharing it here soon as my morning post.
Love and sex and relationships
I walked along way in the way I treat life in general, and i have a lot of insight of how to love better , have better sex and relationships so I’ll write about that as well.
An other passion of mine is new technology I have a Facebook page in Hebrew where I share about new stuff that coming out so look out for my post about new technologies.
Well I can write for much longer but I feel as you got a good introduction to who I am and what to expect to see from me , I will summarize it tho
You’ll see me post about:
. Kabbalah :I’m going to write interesting post explaining basic to complicated aspects ( tree of life , ten seferot, orders of the worlds etc...)
. Music and art: I’ll share original poems, songs , instrumental music and my “path of the artist challenge “
.new technology: I’ll share cool videos and articles about new and future technology.
Anyways that’s it
Let’s have fun
Wild and free
And happy