Never realise that the day of ending coming so fast, 24th Jan 2025- 18th Feb 2025.

This starts from where I can’t really accept her as my partner since the day I met her at Jb city centre, be it her size of body, her looks, her teeth…
Yet, I decide to give it a shot with the belief of I would discover one’s fascinating character and personality when the time I know the person long enough.
The only thing I really admire is her family background, the plot her parents have, the financial status she is achieving right now as well as the perspective she has at the relationship.
Yes, it is true that she knows that the relationship is on thin ice or fragile and yet, she was trying to fix it as I owe her the message during the weekend 15th, 16th Feb. She does not resonate with me when I told her the situation of Dad and my brother, instead questioning in a unfriendly manner.
Yes, it is correct that keep partner informed is the correct way of maintaining relationship, but going against body’s intuition will not work. I was stress and frightened since the beginning instead of enjoying. But, it is not true to say I learn nothing, it will enrich the exp of mine and proceed better in the next relationship

Another point I would highlight is that do not invest so much money on the lady since it might not work. Waste of money

She has been the leader in the relationship, not follower, I cant influence her, in a way that, when I was trying to inspire her, she will claim that I am PUA her.

LB Notes
我讨厌答应的事情做不到
女生来姨妈前几天荷尔蒙不稳定 我有时候比较容易爆炸 不要惹我生气 一点点我就炸了
还有跟哪个女生联系 你可以告诉我这个是同事 这个是谁 不要骗我
我会跟你讲我现在心情不好想静静 因为还有以前的事情困扰着我
我会问你一定是带着答案来问你 骗我我不会拆穿你 我只会很失望
还有我如果做了什么事情你不喜欢你跟我讲
如果是真的不能避免，我会想办法
如何解决争端: 你给我找吃的 我就哄好了
吵架了对吗不要咄咄逼人 给我时间 我要整理一下情绪 不然吵架都是会说伤人的话
还有出门 除非我有特别要买要去的地方
我会告诉你我们几时要去一趟 其他时候希望你可以准备好带我去哪里
我很怕冷的 车上要有抱抱还要有冷衣
不用什么特别贵的地方，我很抠的 我也不喜欢欠人人情 没有任何关系的时候我习惯aa
但是我希望可以不要有那种让我会胡思乱想的异性出现,你要告诉我她是谁,为什么
我可以理解,不要说什么,怕你生气所以不告诉你,或者说什么，你看我知道不想骗你才告诉你的,结果你生气,我本来可以不告诉你的, 这类型的蠢话, 我占有欲很强
不解决我就会记一辈子,不是小气, 是因为那是我们两个人的事, 牵扯到你我希望可以有个完美的解决办法
喜欢看小说, 哈哈哈哈我还有点小哮喘，怕抽血,有点轻度抑郁
不喜欢衣服弄到汁，要带纸巾

关于午餐没发照片
我明白你想积极参与到我的生活里，在我家庭里面 并没用边吃边看手机的习惯。由于座位接近于肩并肩，我不想跟我妈交代或撒谎我拍照的目的。
当然，我不否认有些惰性的存在，我选择了不拍。
至于你之前你休息天有没有拍照你的午餐，我不否认只是要转移你的注意力。

至于“本来有我吗”, “现在这样不是很奇怪”, 在我的认知里，我们是友达以上，我想说的是我还在适应你的存在。我有一次跟你聊到说，我最后一次有喜欢的感觉，是在中学的时候。到此时此刻，很遗憾的是，也是。我不明白为什么我如此铁石心肠，或感情无感，或感情缺失，我身体反应骗不了我，就算我自己PUA 我自己，我做不到。我知道有人垂青于我，我应该谢天谢地，好好珍惜，但是我做不到。以之于，有时回复你的讯息，我会感觉到不从容，因为你的厚爱我无以回报，只能通过准时准点上报得以缓解。
但是，我始终相信每个人身上都有闪光点，我在努力

”我说过我讨厌同样的话说两次”,这句话很重，非常消耗感情，