fyi: my papa is writing this, not me. he jumped on my computer when he saw me reading your post!

If you want to be depressed, then by all means, move to Washington (or Oregon). Strip clubs, dive bars, tent cities and closed businesses. Sitting in the rain drinking is not going to help your state of mind at all. Only YOU can change how you see life and what you do with it. Yeah, a change of scenery is nice for the first few months, but what then? I was born and raised up there, I know all the yippy mentality up there too and it doesn't help. Granted, the weed is awesome but that won't alleviate your funk or motivate you to achieve the higher plane that you're apparently looking for. Best wishes to you, and I hope you find the freedom you seek! :)