It’s difficult to imagine that the year is already half over. It’s as if it sprouted wings while I was plotting and hesitating about much of it. Like I had to sit with myself the other day and admit to myself that I didn’t do a couple of things these last six months that I really wanted to do, mostly because I kept doubting myself or waiting for the right moment.
One habit I really want to leave behind now is overthinking and doubting myself, especially when it comes to finding work. Sometimes, I see job posts especially remote customer support roles or even those cyber friend chatting jobs and I catch myself thinking, Am I even qualified? Will they pick me? Should I even bother? That fear has held me back too long.
Honestly, money has been tight. I’ve wasted months looking for ways to make a few extra bucks to cover personal expenses or support my family the way I’d prefer to. It’s a hard feeling, knowing you want to do more but you’re not sure where to begin, or you’re second-guessing yourself until another week passes by.
A thing that gave me a real moment the other day was just looking at the calendar and realizing six months gone. My first response had been frustrated, but after that I came to feel nothing but determined. I don’t want the rest of the year to be like it though.
One thing that feels different this time is that I recently joined Hive about a month ago. That alone was a small leap of courage. I didn’t even know writers got paid here at first, and I almost talked myself out of joining. But I’m glad I did. Sharing my stories, reading others, and seeing the community support has shown me that sometimes you have to try even when you’re unsure.
For this second half of the year, I want to embrace action. I’m planning to start applying more deliberately to CSR remote jobs customer service roles where I can work from home. I know there are entry-level positions out there if I just put in the time to search, polish my CV, and send the applications.
I also want to explore those cyber friend or chatting gigs I used to dismiss. Even if they’re small or part-time, they could be a step forward. The goal isn’t to find the perfect thing instantly but to just start. To do something.
What I’m deciding to adopt instead of skepticism is consistency. Even if I make something only a little at first, even if it may slow going. I want to be wise enough to try and patient enough to persist.
This six-month reboot isn’t just a money thing. Then believe I’m capable of changing my situation and do my part to make it happen. I want to finish this year proud that I didn’t give up.
If you’re someone reading this and feeling the same I want to reaffirm for us that the tiny steps still count. Here’s to making them.
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