Back a few years ago on the Disqus platform when people could have their own websites on there there was a guy who ran a website called Headline News. It was a middle east news site but initially it had very few people interacting and most nights he'd just be on there talking about middle east stuff by himself. He was usually online when I was, late in wee hour mornings so I started poking about with him. Eventually he made me a moderator but I never really moderated anything but I did most up a lot of main stream media stuff. He challenged me to look outside the mainstream and learn about the middle east. I did. I came away from that experience deeply depressed. I'd find myself sitting at Subway eating a sandwich looking out over the produce section and thinking about people who lived on muddy hillsides with makeshift tents. People living in bombed out buildings, children unable to go out and play. Or a whole host of other ills in the world. I started questioning everything I was doing in comparison to the suffering of people across the globe. Like how can I be out here planting flowers to beautify my yard when people were living in fear or without proper housing or food. As time went on I also learned that not only was I powerless to do anything about it even if I had the power to stop it it wouldn't stop for long. I came to realize that behind the enemy was another enemy waiting to fill the vacuum if I was no longer their enemy nor they mine.