If you can find where I said it was personally hurting me please do highlight that in a quote. I've never had high expectations on here, that doesn't mean I can't feel for the real people who have been hurt. I am not changing who I am, good, bad or indifferent, I'll forge ahead being who I've always been. It's a hobby, I don't consider it an investment unless I would have actually invested money into it. What I earn on here more than likely will be exactly where it currently resides the day I leave this earth.