Yeah when I said troll-like I meant living in a dark cave. I was on the ground floor in a narrow street surrounded by tall office blocks.

• I used to constantly write about how unhappy work made me and how I kept experiencing bouts of intense depression... I constantly informed healthcare professionals that there was a physical reason behind this, they patted me on t'head and told me to run along.

For them it's mostly having a good memory rather than actually understanding the science behind it.

I've had a go at doctors for treating the symptoms of a condition rather than treating the condition itself. "I don't want something for the pain, I want you to treat the thing that is causing the pain and then the pain will go away". Same thing can be said of depression and diabetes ii (not diabetes i - that is a condition) - they are both symptoms of an underlying condition/problem.

Doctors can cope with the common stuff or emergencies but they are not really up there on the science. They haven't got a clue on how all the hormones work. How everything is thrown off by shift work and how everything gets metabolised differently or rather incorrectly so that your blood sugar goes wonky. Add the pancreatic problems on top you are going to get severe waves of depression.

I could rant all day on this - the number of times I have had to hold my tongue when I was thinking "no shit Sherlock" is untrue.

As an aside my nephew just qualified as a doc. He left for Australia 2 weeks ago with pretty much the whole of his house. Seems the student docs are all pissed off with government attitudes.