I am not one who is quick to anger because I have a very long fuse, it doesn't mean I can't get annoyed or miffed at someone.
I annoy myself sometimes when my instincts tell me to do or not to do and I don't heed my gut feeling thereby suffering the consequences of my actions, I get annoyed at myself and scold myself for not listening to my head.
My annoyance at myself lasts only for a short time..
Another instance is when I have a really bad day and it seems like all the powers that be are against me.
You know those days where things won't just work out, even the simplest of tasks and other things that shouldn't go bad on a normal day. I get annoyed at myself for being clumsy and ruining everything in my path which leads me to being in a sour mood all day.
It doesn't last very long…
Later on, when I find peace and reflect on the activities of the day I realize that annoyance is a huge hindrance and it prevents me from fully doing what I wanted to do because of my sour mood. And because of my sour mood I won't get to enjoy those things that make me happy which is not good at all.
Since being annoyed at myself basically ruins my day for me I find it very hard to stay mad at myself for long. With time the anger dissipates and I find more reason to love myself once again with a strong promise never to repeat the same mistakes ever again.
MY MOTHER
Staying mad at my mother for long periods doesn't yield results and it's not a really productive thing to do. Neither is it healthy for both of us.
My Mother gets to me from time to time as it is with mothers and I used to react and protest but it never did anything good to our relationship and so I decided to take the peaceful way as I always do when I'm angry with myself, I let go of it.
Instead of harboring annoyance against her, I let her say her mind and I apologize and we move on from there. Soon it'd be as if nothing happened.
I'm not really a fan of heated arguments too so I try my best to avoid it as much as I can.
Plus, love conquers all. :)
MY SIBLINGS
The same theory that applies to my Mother applies to the rest of my family including my Father.
I don't know why, but I find it hard to hold grudges against them.
I find no positivity in holding grudge against family and it has helped us grow together even when they get severely on my nerves and it seems like the world would end the next moment.
I step back and observe the issue from every angle and then conclude that it won't be healthy for either of us and one of us has to make peace and I choose to be that person all the time.
Even my close friends too, I find it hard to stay annoyed at them because once I remember all the fond memories we have made and I realize I don't want to lose those precious moments, it's really easy for me to let go of my anger for the sake of peace.
As a result, it has strengthened my relationship with my Mother and Father and the rest of my family.
There's really no point in staying annoyed when you can stay happy at all times.
Besides there's always ways I get bribed as a way of apology which I usually accept with open arms.
;)
I don't really mind.
I've been called a Peacemaker once or twice but I didn't pay any mind to it.
Maybe I am.
Thank you for reading. ✨
