I've thought of this bouncing ball analogy a few times since you mentioned it. Is it a bad sign that the ball is red right now?? I think that's a good way to have some hope for the long-term. Hopefully the ball will eventually lose its bounce as well and just roll into a corner.

I went to a therapist a handful of times. It did help a bit, but I don't think I feel I'll get more benefit from it at this point. It was helpful during the initial events and shock to make sense of things, but keeping it up doesn't feel necessary right now. However, I have that resource available as needed.