After meeting such a variety of people not only here on steemit but from all walks of life and classes of life, there is always that one feeling I noticed everyone possesses without really thinking about or talking about it. That feeling of suffering. Homelessness brings with it, homeless suffering. Home owners have homeowners suffering. Singles have single people suffering. Couples have couple's suffering. I could go on!
That's something that connects us as humans. Even if your mother or family tried to give you the most comfortable life possible, you know suffering. It motivates us to become who we are, daily. Suffering is something that I pretty much mastered in some ways and in other ways, haven't suffered enough. I know pleanty of people who might disagree but that's okay. Hear me out, though. The most interesting type of suffering to me is those who suffer willingly, freely, and gladly. That's fucking genius. I have a friend who does this and he says that he hears people say "I wish I had your determination." To which he says it's absolutely bs. I agree. I know what determination like that is like and it's just one choice away from being something you have. It's a choice. It's saying "fuck this sucks" and doing what you have to do anyways. I guess the reason why I want to talk about willingly suffering in this manner is because I feel like that's the key to training different. It's easy to just jump on the first trend and copypasta the success blue prints, but how do you make it your own? How do you wish to suffer so that it works for you? Don't be afraid to solve your own problems how you see fit. There is no quick, easy fix. There is no button to press to instantly be successful in whatever it is you're trying to nail. What I see is, maybe it's time for me to suffer differently. Thanks for tuning in to my mumbo jumbo. This water fast has me thinking about all the ways I've felt like I had to do things a certain way. Overthinking, what is it good for.
Just to be clear I am not advocating that you go out there and torture yourself. This is more of an epiphany that if I'm going to suffer no matter what then I'm going to choose how and why and take control of the chaotic suffering that comes from the chemical unbalance going on inside of me known as post traumatic stress. Adapt and overcome. Train different. Everyone is practicing something, training, whether aware if it or not. For me, I'm just training to be a better person than I was for my family and especially for my self, not just physically, but mentally. 🌸
