Plankton (singular plankter) are the diverse collection of organisms that live in large bodies of water and are unable to swim against a current. (Wikipedia).
That's what I am. I am a single little organism lost in the turbid waters of a thing called Steemit. I don't have a clue what I'm doing here. I hear all this talk of minnows, dolphins, and whales and fear I might get eaten alive.
I guess I'm just trying to find my niche in this vast ocean of social media. I like what I read from users like @eaglespirit and I like the work
@sycochica is doing with the LGBT thing as well but I don't have a clue what kind of colorful microscopic organism I am when it comes to that community either.
Maybe I'm a cat. I find it hard to think I belong to the human race when I look around at how humans treat other humans so maybe I'm a cat. Cats get all the love and I seem to get no love so being at cat is out.
The term "Jack of all trades and master of none" seems to apply in my life. Gypsy comes to mind as well as I seem to have a wandering spirit and enjoy feeling free and at liberty to come and go and do as I please. I suppose it all stems from growing up in a very abusive household and being raped as an introduction to sexuality. Trust has always been an issue as well. As @eaglespirit eluded in her post on being an empath I seem to have picked up that gift digging out of the despair that once kept me so bound to horrific memories.
I never found to much help or even compassion when it came to church. I did however find Jesus one day in the smile of a child and that day turned my life around and gave me a reason to live. Having attempted suicide on more than one occasion I look back on that perfect day where the wide eyed smile of a child caused me to melt inside and experience pure perfect peace and understanding of all things. Victory was at last mine to cling to.
But still. Here on steemit I'm nothing but a plankter, not even a fish, fish food in fact. I hope one day to transition. I hope one day to be like a velveteen rabbit and claim that I'm real even. I hope there is a soul in this upside down world that reads this and takes some splice or even gets a chuckle out of my feeble existence as a planner.
Love is the key to all.